16/05/2012 9:09pm (Wednesday )

I asked myself a same question everyday. "What do I really want to achieve?".

To be honest, if a goal is realistic, I can't think of any reason what I can't achieve.

A life without goal , passion , motivation is wasting time. I know the differences very well.

My life is totally different than who I was. I have been wasting 3 years.

It's time to make a decision to end this up.

Congratulation to her. She finally found her perfect bf.

I sincerely wish she all the best.

I know I'm special, how I'm different from others.

When the time comes, things will change.

19/03/2012 (Monday) 10:27pm

I have no rest day for 3 weeks.

Monday, the most tiring day.

A lot of bad things happened to me recently...

越有本事的男人越没脾气. 

I saw people posting this in Facebook.

I should learn how to listen and accept people.

Yes, I have always been thinking that I'm good.

Of course, and in fact, I'm doing better than many people in my age group.

But, I'm not the best, and there is no way to define who is the best.

That is self-confidence. But when it's too much, it becomes ego.

She has been so active in whatapps nowadays.

To be honest, my feeling is mixed.

I feel happy when she is happy.

I feel upset when I lost my chance.

I need a reason to believe in her,

I need a excuse to lie myself.

I know I'm special. I don't have chance like others to enjoy the life.

The moment I gain the SEED ability.

15/03/2012 2:04am (Thursday)

I can't sleep today.

I wonder how is she doing nowadays.

I never message her again.

She is still the first person I check my phone when I wake up,

She is still the last person I check my phone when I sleep.

I won't hold my phone to sleep again.

She is the first and the last person I have done this.

It's really pain to wait a phone that doesn't ring.

Sometimes when I saw her online in whatappas, Skype... I just wish to greet her.

But I always end up cancelled my message.

I know she have been changing her status message in whatapps. So do I.

拥有与你故事，足以让我回忆一辈子。

I always work hard to make myself become more reliable to her.

Time has passed, chance has gone.

Deep in my heart, I still believe in "If there is one day".

I just don't know how to give up.

I can't think of a reason why we make ourselves miserable.

04/01/2012 6:10pm (Wednesday)

I'm doing bad recently.

There is not really something bad happened.

I think I lost myself again.

I have nobody to talk to.

I don't really need acknowledge from people other than her.

I don't really care about others.

25/12/2011 10:00 (Sunday)

Merry Christmas !!

Nothing special to me either. I have no where to go.

At least, I message her for Merry Christmas.

I have my whole morning and afternoon well rest.

I'm the 726th visitor to her blog.